the year was a roller coaster ride for me….. I experienced everything in this year of my life…. everything means everything…. love , friendship , betrayal , anger , fight , rage…. everything… everything….
people generally says 1st year of college is the best…. I don’t agree… I think mine first year was my nut-cracking and I finally started getting into the environment…. I started leaving my inhibitions… the process is slow but I have started noticing its effects… the effects are both positive and negative…. but it is the law of nature , every thing has two sides….
3rd semester :::::
the sem began very weird… I got infection in my throat and the infection was very serious and it took almost two weeks to complete heal off… that means I got back to college after 3 weeks after the college start date… I was almost attendance short in everything… I have straight 3 bunks in all the labs… and my college is short of very kamina in terms of attendance…. and I have to be in my new room with my new roommates…. I got back in the college and started attending my classes… everything started normal… but mine and mine best friend’s path began to go in the opposite directions and we started arguing on everything…. I started changing then… I started changing myself then and there… their chosen path is not wrong but for me it is not right… it is the same old path which everyone takes…. I want to take risk… I want to jump from the cliff to see what lies beyond that…. I want to create a something magnificient for myself… I started listening to them, observing them and started taking in all the things which I found interesting and helpful in my growth… I began to grow in leap bounds and this pissed some very badly… they are started bad-mouthing about me everywhere… and I just started enjoying it as I came to know that mine path is right as people started opposing my ideas and thinking…. but I am determined to take a risk… if I succeed I may achieve something magnificient and if I fail , normal things are there are for me….. and I will not fail…..then techfest came and my friend played the role he has to play in my life… he took some girls in our robotics team… at first I argued then I agreed as I want to explore working with girls also… first two classes were boring and then in the third class, I saw a girl who was going to change my life forever… that girl is now my girlfriend…. mine official and 1st girlfriend…… for the next two weeks she was in my mind allover…. I asked my friend for an intro but he refused then I asked my mutual friends (with p*****) they also refused and finally I went straight to her and started talking…. topics were useless…. whatever I found I began to speak on that… I clearly bored and irritated her… this continued for next two classes and then I aksed for her number and she gave it to me… I sent her the first message but no reply came and I said “whatever”… but then one day out of the blue, she send me a sms and we began to chat as I was on my way to college from cuttack… mine parents were there for some medical purpose… we talked a little and then our normal sms forward began and progressed… then we began to chat every night… our chatting grew from night to anytime in the day… mine first 2-3 invitations were rejected and then during our 3rd internal we went out for our 1st coffee… that was the bizarre meet ever… the amount we talk on the phone is no where to be found, and we were just in silent mode with each other…. from then on, we started talking more and more… at that point of time , I was just interested in friendship with her… I didn’t thought of love and relationship then… then we went home… I was sure she is not going to send her mobile number to me but she sent … I forwarded her 1 message but she kept sending and then our night chat began at home also… that is the point we become close friends with each other… we started sharing everything with each other… mostly what we think is enough for another… but we went to deeper things and we become close friends with each other… then when we returned to college we began to meet in personally and due to that we became sort-of best friends and we started to get in the limelight of the college couple circle but we were just friends then… then we had our sems exam and I studied well and gave it well …. how well I had given that, I am waiting for that only keeping my fingers crossed….. then on the final exam we went out as I was about to go home and we cant meet for the next 1 week / 7 days….then on that night, mine train was late and we chatted till 2 am… our first longest chat….then at the home we chatted,chatted and chatted… In the meanwhile , I was getting more focused on my career and started taking responsibility and started to balance everything in my life… mine relationship with my friends started getting more mature and adult-like than being childish and immature… I began to start focusing on understanding things than just mugging up for the exams… I started thinking independently and creatively… some were quite very creative and really pissed off some people… people started taking me seriosly… I began making friends and enemies at a very high rate….
4th sem ::::
now came the sem, which changed me completely… the day I got here for my classes, I was welcomed in sms by her only… and that day wherever I went in the college I found her and we blinked and smiled at each other…. we began meeting on every wednesday… then saturday also got added to it…. then we began to meet during the college hours also by bunking classes… we were now declared couple in the college… but we were not that then… we were just good friends…. during our endless talks and frequent meetings , we got middle of the bridge between friendship and love and we declared ourselves in open realtionship…. the most wonderful thing about her is that she is open minded and doesn’t shy away from experimenting with some thing… we were similar in many ways… our thinkings were just same to same the only difference was that I was more risk-taker than her in trying out new things….then on one fine day, on 12th may, we became officially couple with me proposing and she accepting…. and within a week , we were public…. and we began to chat whenever we both are free and we began to meet everyday…. we even fixed our location and places where we used to hangout…. now the balancing thing came for both and we managed to balance the things in a nice manner….. I got more involved in everything in the college… I started enjoying my college life finally… padhai-likhai took the back seat and I was recklessly trying out everything which I found out there… I was also studying exhaustively a night before exams… I finally accepted the fact that marks and grade are not that important , know-how of the subject is important…. I started understanding things and relating it to the real life… I was proclaiming it from early on but was not following it, but from this sem only , it became skin deep… I and mine friends started getting more and more mature and responsible… we all had chose our goals in abstract sense and began to pursue it exhaustively…. but we didn’t inform it to each other… our friendship became abstract and more mature….. and now I am home preparing for my end sems exam… I know how much I am preparing….
lets see how my exams marks the end of this phase of my life…….